Five Years Without Eran

Five Years Without Eran

20 Shvat 5772 – Feb 13, 2012
By Doron Almog, Eran’s Father

In the morning prayers that are aired a few minutes before 6:00 a.m. on Channel 2 every morning, the radio announcer recites:

“Hear, O Israel, the L-rd is our G-d, the L-rd is One.

And you shall love the L-rd your G-d with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your might. And these words which I command you today shall be upon your heart. You shall teach them thoroughly to your sons, and you shall speak of them when you sit in your house and when you walk on the road, when you lie down and when you rise. You shall bind them as a sign upon your hand, and they shall be for a reminder between your eyes. And you shall write them upon the doorposts of your house and upon your gates.”

As we get caught up in the morning rush, the sound of the Shema prayer echoes in my ears.  I hear over and over again the motif of unconditional love.  “You shall love…with all your heart and all your might.  And these words shall be upon your heart…when you sit in your house and when you walk on the road, when you lie down and when you rise.”

And this love demands ongoing, constant symbols, day after day…a sign upon your hand, a reminder between your eyes…upon the doorsteps of your house and upon your gates.

I also hear “You shall teach them thoroughly to your sons.”  I say to myself: I don’t have a son.  It is already five years since Eran is gone.  And even when he was here I couldn’t teach him anything.  He was my teacher.  He taught me respect.  He taught me what love is.  I was always the student, and he was the teacher.

You, my dear son, the love of my life, whose connection I so miss every day – you direct my every path.  You are my compass in all the distractions and confusion.  You guide me with your deafening silence, your lacking hug, the expression in your special eyes and the significance that you bestow to my life every day.  You open my eyes to see every day anew.  You obligate me to commit myself every day, again and again, to a covenant of love toward you and those like you.

I check the source of the morning prayer and the Shema Yisrael, and find that it was part of the address of Moses to the Jewish people named “The speech of Pe’or,” given before the war with Jericho, the first battle upon entering the Land of Israel.  Moses used love as the foundation for strength – the strength of sacrifice and dedication, and the love, friendship and devotion of the soldiers.

I teach myself again and again the words you spoke to me and the words you still speak to me every day.  I continue to travel the world and spread your message and teachings, my dear son, my compass, the love of my life.

And I look forward to the great strength of a great nation who will catalyze a tikkun olam that will give all of us hope, strength, and love to help us in all our challenges.

Eran’s grandmother, Margalit Hed z”l, passed away on her beloved grandson’s yahrzeit exactly five years later: 20 Shvat 5772, February 13, 2012

“Beloved and pleasant in their lifetime, and in their death they were not parted” (Samuel II, 1:23)

To read Doron’s eulogy in honor of his dear mother-in-law, click here


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